So she took her love for to gaze a while upon the fields of barley; in my arms she fell as her hair fell down among the fields of gold…….will u still love me will you be my love ….among the fields of barley ; we’ll forget the sun in his jealous sky among the fields of Gold……………………………
Mind Freaking experiences since last few days……..
Awakening of a feeling which had Died for almost years and years…………
No reason and no sense…….yet so livid, lucid, and oblivious and Beautiful…….
Someone who just happened to become an important part of me said “vipul you are weird, u look like a psycho…..u don’t attract psycho’s as you are one”
Someone who used to be very important to me and probably I loved to the core told me this year starting “Vipul you are not the kind of man someone can take home to….. You are used and you have a son”
As of now and since years back all I managed to do is laugh it off………. It doesn’t bother me anymore as the fact of Human selfless love is obsolete for my used soul.
The feeling of a constant mind fuck forces me to believe that iam unwanted…..
People with whom I don’t have a “being in love connection” accuse me of having it and using them…..
People with whom I feel a “being in something” connection don’t wish that from me or with me…………..
Is my Divorce a taboo which inflicts its plague on me ever since I have learnt about it?
Or am I a real living breathing PSYCHO?
Or am I yet another VAMPIRE who lives in the night and burns in the sun……….
I have a purpose and I have to accomplish that………. My Son is my life and soul…….. No hopes of any one accompanying this life and no hopes of any possible Love………….or companionship……… yet my hearts waits for thee………….
One day the sun shall shine again I know of that……one day someone will be my sun I know of that………. Would that day be in my next birth……… would I have a next birth anyways?
Scarred face/ scarred body/ scarred soul……yet not demented …..Yet not dead……yet the instinct is 100 folds…..
Iam the Phoenix…..
Burn me and I shall live again…………
Mind Freaking experiences since last few days……..
Awakening of a feeling which had Died for almost years and years…………
No reason and no sense…….yet so livid, lucid, and oblivious and Beautiful…….
Someone who just happened to become an important part of me said “vipul you are weird, u look like a psycho…..u don’t attract psycho’s as you are one”
Someone who used to be very important to me and probably I loved to the core told me this year starting “Vipul you are not the kind of man someone can take home to….. You are used and you have a son”
As of now and since years back all I managed to do is laugh it off………. It doesn’t bother me anymore as the fact of Human selfless love is obsolete for my used soul.
The feeling of a constant mind fuck forces me to believe that iam unwanted…..
People with whom I don’t have a “being in love connection” accuse me of having it and using them…..
People with whom I feel a “being in something” connection don’t wish that from me or with me…………..
Is my Divorce a taboo which inflicts its plague on me ever since I have learnt about it?
Or am I a real living breathing PSYCHO?
Or am I yet another VAMPIRE who lives in the night and burns in the sun……….
I have a purpose and I have to accomplish that………. My Son is my life and soul…….. No hopes of any one accompanying this life and no hopes of any possible Love………….or companionship……… yet my hearts waits for thee………….
One day the sun shall shine again I know of that……one day someone will be my sun I know of that………. Would that day be in my next birth……… would I have a next birth anyways?
Scarred face/ scarred body/ scarred soul……yet not demented …..Yet not dead……yet the instinct is 100 folds…..
Iam the Phoenix…..
Burn me and I shall live again…………
