Independence

One of those morning’s….. Good Morning….
When the KARMA….. Comes face to face…… screams!!! Shouts …..
All plans were defined …. Attainable Glory…. Achievable success!!!!!!!
Where did what go wrong???????????
Some blame the KARMA….. Some STARS…..Some ME….
Flash of DEATH…..or DEAD….. Do I give up today?
A second consisting of millions of Nano seconds……every nano second with a new thought….every new thought with another million versions…..
Permanent Mental block……… a situation where one’s head stops to think rationally….Fear clouds over…… no solution……. No way out…….. Phone call to the astrologer…..”Hoping for a miracle…for an unanswered solution” sick of this blame game……can’t see anything working out…..can’t figure out how and why there is no solution…… cannot take this humiliation and soul ripping anymore…… and DIE …. My responsibility does not permit….. Can’t live those vultures not permit…
Son….. Let GOD decide the best for you…… leave it on GOD…… when all the doors are closed and smoke fills in each crevice and corner then GOD holds your hand and guides you…..
How long will GOD wait until GOD sees this despair situation….. DID I ask for a possible MIRACLE…..? No!!!! NOT AT ALL…… simple course of results of our actions ….. Why can’t it just be normal……. Who asked for a HEROIC story ……… I have to pay salaries…… I have to pay bills…… I have to pay them VULTURES….. I have to eat………cannot arrange the Fees for my Child’s education…..cannot figure out anything……it’s just so DARK in here……….
Something will happen….. You performed your act and duties….let GOD be the one now…….. Astrologically your Position is not GOOD…… then why my family should suffer my planets….Don’t they have their own one’s…….. I took chances and risks……it should be only my troubles and my sorrows….. Why them ……
The limits have crossed….. The regime is lost…… confidence alive and hope survives…….Iam DEAD but ME Decides……No answers!!! No Solutions……who wanted they got…….. Utilised whores…….. Utilised ME….lie open eyed Naked Dead bodies still breathing ….. Blistered inside and soul……. Ground repeatedly ….. Sour bleeding emotions………legs wide spread……. Dry tears……. Moaning of mourn providing rhythmic acoustics for Rapists moans….. No water to wash this crime…… no water to clear this smell……no water to sooth what tore….yes GOD is there……I saw GOD….. Eyes motor functions but they don’t close…… I See GOD….. The bad breath hits my face again…. The evil hunger hits my eye again….up and down……blocking VISION…unblocking vision….. I See GOD….I don’t see GOD….I see GOD …. I don’t see GOD…..


Another day the vulture flies….. Another day the sharks they bite…..another day I have to survive….another day I have to survive…..

Vision of Sun clear, vision of Glory waiting……… Dreams clausterfobic…… achievements GOD’S GRACE….