The smile shall remain.......

I always say “Lost my Virginity to Capitalism”,

Many people think it’s a Heavy thought out Phrase of a not- so – sought out brain……..

Many people think it’s quite sexy and attention gainer sort of phrase…….

Few say it’s kind of Cool…. "them Dames like this kinda shit an all”

And many just pass by thinking it’s by some schizophrenic Brain dead psycho…..

People who are very close to me think that many people won’t understand why have I used this phrase for myself but shall find it quite intriguing…….

What was I thinking before I put such a statement online…….

Honestly I think I didn’t think anything at all……

The meaning of what I wrote is only well understood by me only…….

I have never blamed or regretted my birth in this world…..never….

Looking for Romance……..is all crime I commit…… Romance…..A terminology understood in all different forms and ways Romance…….a feeling just a blatant feeling……

The daily grind of and for money……..self satisfying egoistic issues…….Pizzas and Pastas, Armani and LV, Rolex ……..wines and wines……AND WINES……pretty faces and sexy Bods……hunks and hulks………lean and sheen……..cars and shares……….gays and gay………football and cricket……..wife and husband………woman and women….Man and men…….sexists and incest….. Spiritual Gurus and spiritual followers…….


“We sold our culture to a pair of jeans” this was a topic I got in school around 17 years back to prepare a Debate on…….

While today when my Banks call me and threaten me…….my son’s image flashes in front of my eyes now and again……the courtroom drama…..the police and society opinion…….i think…..i think what culture did I speak of then……..what pair of jeans did we sold our culture to……NOTHING…….

What has my vision getting Blur and my decisions and my family and my son and my sanity or insanity got anything to do with this obnoxious culture or that Bold stitched pair of Denims……..

God who wrote my destiny didn’t form this culture or the darn pair of jeans……..my actions and decisions had nothing to do with that either…………

Does this culture or this jeans care about the fact that my Son is not with me…….NO……

Iam loosing the clarity of thought, once I was proud off……..maybe only to regain my lost loose self again …..Maybe it’s the God’s will……….

I have realized this much that “I” has no value at all………

That this so called world is not working by our efforts……………

If only we had the power……..

Them Damn people who are on my back are there as it’s destined that way………

While driving to the office I received a sms……

While driving to the office I received a call……

Same people……same reasons……same yapping……

I guess more things to learn and accept………

Just that……

One can go a million miles and take a million sorrows in one’s stride……..but I guess the times have gone for a possible Gratitude………

Something I read and realized that it’s all for waste and Filth………

Iam not at fault…….no Iam not……. If people cannot possibly thank me or at least acknowledge my efforts and giving in then they were never worth it……….

its just not a good feeling that people only think of you in disgust or for monetary reasons.....

What goes around comes around………they shall someday………………

Some day………..

Realize……..

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