Vision.................Virtue

“Do not dwell in the past; do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.
Words have the power to both destroy and heal. When words are both true and kind, they can change our
World”

Clear the clutter Vipul;
Make peace with your past;
Unless the past is dealt with properly the Present and Future will never be beautiful;
No more I want to be there for people who don’t value me;
No more Iam going to fuck my present with issues which I have pushed under the carpet;
My problem is I don’t know how to handle myself;
I don’t know where Iam going;
People walk into my life and walk out at their own whims and fancy;
I always wish to be with people, who would understand me and that’s, what Iam will stick to now;
Iam through with being the EAR and Mirror for everyone while I never receive anything close to acknowledgement for it;
I wish to do exactly what I wish to do and how I wish to do;
For more than 10 years the hunger and need for companionship has taken my peace away, tried giving in to best of my capabilities and things never worked out, guess the reason was that I never received much back. Isn’t life and relations like give and take? Then why is it that I keep my mouth shut and never able to speak what I truly feel and where what I don’t approve off;
I would give in to a situation to go away from a possible confrontation as I am scared of people walking out eventually leading to a volcano eruption throwing out LAVA leading to a complete CATSTROPHY ;
Why can’t I ever speak my mind in open and put my foot down;
Why am I so scared of letting my emotions and feeling out on the table and let the feeling of someone staying or leaving Go Off;
Why don’t I realize that eventually if someone stays with me would be because they accept me the way Iam and if they choose to pack their bags then they were never right for me?
Why is it so difficult to face that Courtroom Drama when I have faced worst?
Never ever I shall show my weakness in front of people….who make me feel cheap;

“Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one getting burned.”

My life is no more my life……..my choice of family and friends are gonna be those with whom I think my son will be happy………anyone with whom I feel there is gonna be a bad vibe sorta thing towards my SON is out…..
I need to break free from the chains I have been drowning with now……unless I do that I shall never be able to clear my head and my fears are going to kill my present and future as well..
I shall give in my best for anything…….but if I don’t see a proper reciprocation I will not be there……enough of being around and taking crap…..
I won’t give shit and I definitely not gonna take it anymore……
Iam the way Iam…..tried changing it for everyone’s preference…..but no more…..if Iam stupid and childlike for someone, then I am that….so SUE me Fuckers…..
If my ways are too selfish and self related then it’s gonna be the same…….
My ways will only be mended if they are wrong for people I love and care about but that too in limits……
If I can’t be happy I cannot make anyone happy….and now is the time for the change…..i am gonna put a complete end to all non sense in my life once and for all……for this I need to re-gear myself up and face every issue from past in person and Get it out of my system forever………..
I need to rise above the miniscule things in life…..and rise up to life itself……………